My apt is starting to feel like home.  I went on a shopping spree the day my bed was delivered and bought a whole bunch of things that were needed.  I hope to post some pics of the place soon.  My mom has been bugging me about seeing my apt.  I have found the home theather system that I want.  It is a Panasonic 1000W sys.  It is going to get the cops called on me! lol  Ah, fuck my neighbors.  They annoy me.  I am still undecided on the T.V. that I want to get.  So many choices.  And yes, I am still shopping for a computer.  I think I am leaning on Dell, since I can tell them what I will be using the computer for and they can build one to my needs.  I am lazy like that.  Plus they finance, which I don't need, but will help considering all the things I still want to buy.

I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my life lately.  Noticing all the changes that are happening to me.  For instance I realized that I am not as mature as I have thought.  I think my definition of maturity was always based on responsibility and intelligence, but now I think it has more to do with emotions.  And emotionally, I still have a lot to learn.  I have also realized that I am depressed.  But it isn't as bad as it seems.  I don't feel bad about it.  It feels like an old freind.  It feels comfortable.  I never realized that you could feel that way.  I guess it is a way of coping.  I don't really understand it, I just know that is how I feel.

My life has never been this slow.  I haven't done much, and my shopping spree was almost too much excitement for one day.  I have noticed that I have been getting a lot more attention from women lately.  I don't know why.  They must see something that I don't.  At the same time, I know that I , ah never mind.  I better get back to work.  Sorry I haven't commented lately, but I am still reading!  Miss you all.