*My Journey To Happiness*

Wednesday, 22 December 2004

Well, this will be my last scheduled post. Hopefully I will be writing again soon, but I am sure that by now all of you are use to the "weekly" posts.

Let me start this by talking about Ugapeach04. I guess the begining would be a good place to start. I was on HotOrNot looking to meet people, and she happened to be the only one that I still talk to. We chatted a bit on YIM, and I knew that I met someone great. She was mean and sarcastic, but never in a hurtful way. Just the way I like my women. She made me laugh. Finding a woman who can make you laugh is like finding a diamond on the street. Every woman likes to think that they have a sense of humor or can be one of the guys or they flat out think they are above "dumb" humor. Most woman will say that they want a man with a sense of humor. I wonder if they stop to think that any man with a good sense of humor doesn't want a woman who doesn't have a good sense of humor? but I am rambling now. So I go to her Yahoo profile and found two things there worth mentioning. One was this great website to write all my daily fun. The other was that she was married. I was crushed when I found out. It is not like I meet woman that I like everyday. Matching personalities is sooo hard to find. Especially cause I can be weird at times. Anyways, we continued to chat and blog. Chat and Blog. She became a very important friend to me. Then a while back, we decided to meet. No specifics, just that we both wanted to. Unfortunately, the day after that chat I met Angie, and the next day I slept with her. Maybe that was my way of backing away from Tara, I am still not sure. But I know that I hurt her when I did it. She played it off, but I knew that if the roles where reversed I would be hurt. Funny how you can feel like you cheated on someone that you never met, or really even have a relationship with (other than friendship). Then when her posts for the past month and a half "disappeared", I knew for sure that she was hurt. Luckily she forgave me. I think. Anyways, let me just say that as I prepare to leave the state and probably all chance of meeting you, I am glad that you are a friend. I miss you when we don't chat.

I just finished the Household goods move. The majority of my stuff is now on a truck bound for Washington. It only took them about two hours to pack everything and put it on the truck. That was pretty fast. As for the rest of my stuff....well, I still have a lot of stuff. I have two huge bags. My seabag is full of uniforms. Other than uniforms, there is one pair of shoes. The other bag is filled with clothes, gifts, my awards (for my mom's wall), and various other things that the movers wouldn't pack. Like the sixteen bottles of cologne that I have and the flask of Jim Beam black that I have aged for about four years. lol, that makes the Beam about 12 years old. Should be some harsh stuff! Anyways, I have been up all night and now must get some rest before they wake me up for my last night of partying. Last night of partying with them anyways. Wish me sweet dreams.

AMERICA! fuck yeah!

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Tuesday, 14 December 2004

Let's see if I can type this as fast as my life seems to be changing.

I have got everything done for moving. The movers pack all of my stuff on the 22nd of December. I check out of my command on the 23rd, fly that day to Seattle, Wa. I will spend the night there and fly into LA in the morning. Be home by evening. Spend the holidays with family, and hopefully my birthday with Kristi if she knows whats good for her, lol. Then I fly out on the 10th of January to Seattle and report to the USS STENNIS. I wrote my Eval today. Well, a coworker wrote it and I gave her inputs. Then the supervisors chopped it up and I ended up with the best Eval ever. I got a 4.33 average (out of 5.00), and an early promote (which is also the highest you can recieve). Tomorrow morning I recieve my end-of-tour award. It is a Navy and Marine Corps Achievement Medal. The highest award I have ever recieved, and probably the highest I ever will. Not that I won't get another one, but this is my first, so it is special. Today, out of the blue I recieved a Letter of Apprieciation from a Captain. He was the Captain of a boat I volunteered to go out to sea with right before and during the war. It has been a year and a half since I have been on that boat, and I didn't even think that they remembered me. It was kind of nice. They have no effect on my career, but nice just the same.

O.K. update on life. My friend that I went to the Jax game with went to Mast yesterday. It is a lower form of Courts Martial. Intended for lesser crimes of a military nature, but can included civilian things like DUI/DWI and such. It is one of the most stressful things that someone can go through. Trust me. I have been to Mast three times, and I will NEVER go again. I can't take another one. I am lucky, though, they usually kick you out at three. That's beside the point. He got ten days restriction to base. That is pretty light. He was lucky. When I went, I was reduced in rank and had half a months pay taken for two months. That was two of the times. The other I got of with a slap on the wrist, so to speak. Ten days is much better than half a months pay for two months and being demoted. I should be getting ready to take the E-7 test, instead of just making E-5. But I am still lucky. Most wouldn't have made it this far.

Went to a X-mas party. Got wasted. Isn't that what you are suppose to do? Well, I won a Game Cube, but don't remember going up and getting it, lol. Man, we need more office parties like that.

Most of the other days I have been sleeping and trying to forget that my life is about to drastically change in ten days. It feels like there is no time, but I do have time. I spent that time trying not to think about it. I am repeating my self, aren't I? I still don't want to think about it. Next!

I wonder about those X-mas gifts. I can picture what I will get from my mom..... it should be good for a laugh. She actually sent me X-mas gifts on year. It was funny. It was a sweat suit from Walmart. I don't wear Walmart. O.K., I do, but I am picky about it. I have one clothing item from Walmart and it is a sweater that I bought there last X-mas. It is plain and comfortable. Actually, I do wear their white undershirts if that counts, but that is only in uniform. Last X-mas I had a friend buy me a James Dean Calender. I could only laugh. I love James Dean and it was perfect.....but I already bought it a few months before! I didn't tell her and wasn't but another friend thought it was hilarious and told her. I laugh when people tell me that I am hard to shop for. Get me a book! How easy is that? Last year my friends mom bought me a dictonary/thesouous(<---and I should use it more) and I loved it. Nothing is better for writing than that. I have wanted one for years, but just never justified buying one (since I wasn't really writing).

Anyways, maybe more after dinner. Byes

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Monday, 06 December 2004

humm

Friday- I was at work for a total of about a half hour. That was a good thing considering I got about 2 hours of sleep thursday night. That damn medicine wouldn't let me sleep. I just layed in bed, and waited for my alarm clock to go off. When it did I still hit snooze. Habit. Then it was off to Hooter's! It was fun. It is always nice hanging out with coworkers and getting drunk. So much nicer than working with them! I got fairly drunk. At noon. It was great. Didn't actually have the ceremony because the place was packed. Who knew that people actually eat there? Then we went shopping. Big mistake. It is like shopping for groceries while you are hungry. I easily dropped a grand this weekend. The intention was to Christmas shop, but I ended up just buying things that I wanted. I finally got a new chasmere sweater. Well, two of them. Hey, they were on sale! I bought two watches. No wait, three, but the third doesn't count. One of the watches is called the "Dork". It tells you the time, and has several alarms sayings. I learned today that if you press the button at 12pm, it says, "Twelve P M, ....NOONER!" Ha! This is too perfect for me. oh yeah, friday. So we went out to this upperscale bar. Or what was suppose to be an upperscale bar. So we dressed up. I guess it was good, because in comparison the rest of the guys looked like ass. I had a pitcher and a half of Long Island's and I was done. Combine the alcohol with being tired and sick and it wasn't pretty. It was fun though. The only time that my eyes would stop watering or I was even able to breathe was when I was drunk. I stopped taking the medicine after the no sleep Thursday, btw. When we got back I was determined to buy Kristi that gift I mentioned like two months ago. I was at the website, and I couldn't find it. I was searching though a lot of them. Finally I had to stop myself when I started to seriously contemplate buying one of the more expensive ones. Like of thousand dollars kind of expensive.

Post the rest when I get home.

Saturday- slept in and relaxed in my new bedtime clothes. I didn't want to change. They are so comfy. I started wondering if I could be seen in public like this. Nah. A group of us went shopping. It was me (single) and three guys (all with gf's). That sucks. They were shopping for their gf's. I was bored. I am never bored when shopping! I did find a nice leather jacket. I was able to stop myself from buying it, BUT I am going to go back. I really liked it. Then we went back to my friends apt and got ready to go out. He and his gf got into a fight. That was uncomfortable. The bar we went to was fun. Packed, but fun. The waitress were not only hot, they sang for the band too! These girls ROCKED the mic. Ended up back at these pplz house. Got bored. Went back to the apt for sleep.

Sunday- Relaxed until about 4pm, then it was off to do some tailgating! We went to the Jacksonville vs. Pittsburg game. I was drunk before the game started. Sweet. So many hot woman in their game time outfits. I had lots of fun rooting against Jacksonville. It would have been so much more fun if there was more Jag fans. But the crowd was pretty evenly mixed. Still fun. I only watched the first and fourth quarters. The rest of the time I was drinking and walking around the stadium. The Steeler's won kicked a field goal with 22 seconds left on the clock to win the game. Lots of screaming and excitement. Got home late last night and had to wake up early to get ready for work.

We switched to our Winter Working Blues uniform today. I like it much better. Today also happens to be Kristi's (Dee's gf) birthday. I promised I would be her DD on her birthday since she picked me up in Jax a couple weeks ago. I don't think she wants to do anything tonight, but maybe this weekend. I will have to stay completely sober for that. The track record for us being drunk together is not a good one.

Well, that was my weekend. I have more thoughts about it all, but these posts are just too long.

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Thursday, 02 December 2004

Exhausted. Medicine head. Going to sleep. I shouldn't. I have so much that need to get done in preperation for moving. Yeah, I am going to sleep. No food today, too nausous. Still at work. Need to go. Now. Too docile to ask. Maybe I will just sleep here. Watched to movie "Terminal" at lunch today. Is a "Feel good movie." I needed that. Makes me happy in the haze of the medicine. Watch that movie. Going now. Good night, and to all a merry Christmas!

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Wednesday, 01 December 2004

I woke up this morning sick! Is it possible to catch something from IM'ing? What do YOU think UGA??? Huh? Maybe I am just being a sympathy sicker, er you know what I mean. Kinda like sympathy pains.

About five minutes ago I realized where I may have gotten this from. Guess? Either my roommate or work. They had this like mass flu shot thing where they gathered everyone up and forced them into the shot. No sneaking out the door, no faking that you already got one, cause they know, they know. I, on the other hand, am not on their rosters, so I can come and go as I please with no shot. So I decided to not get one this year.

Of course you realize that a flu shot is a tiny bit of the flu, so that you get the flu and your immune system builds antibodies to defend itself. This prevents you from getting a really bad flu. I thought I would be good. No flu for me this year. It never donned on me that everyone at work was about to get sick, and of course, I would end up getting it. No use getting the shot now; it changes when it goes through the body. That is why there is so many different kinds of colds and a new flu every year.

Anyways, this gives me an excuse to make that soup I have had stored away since after the first hurricane. How can I be so stupider sometimes? Must go wallow now. Byes

UPDATE: Funny how this connects us.

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